Excruciating Pain: A Personal Struggle With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, like lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the pain subsided and then returned with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with intense discomfort behind one eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in periodic bouts; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to several causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an evil entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient healing texts propose bizarre remedies for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by international medical committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In 1998, scientists published the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and managing happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.

National guidance on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of some individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent episodes are handled with acute treatment alone. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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Summer Richards
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